Series: Part of the Goodreads M/M Romance Group ‘Love Landscapes’
Author: Jayson James
Genre: Coming of Age/Gay for You
Length: Novella (45 pages)
Publisher: Goodreads M/M Romance Group (June 2nd, 2014)
Heat Level: Mild
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥ 4 hearts
Blurb: Dear Author,
I’d always considered myself sort of asexual up until now. In high school, no one interested me and I was too busy with schoolwork to date anyway. I figured I didn’t have a big sex drive or I just hadn’t met the right girl. However, the more time I spend with my roommate, Ben, the more I’m reconsidering everything.
The more he walks around half-dressed the more I keep noticing him. Even if I am attracted to him, who I’m not sure that I am, I don’t think he would be into me. He seems like the type of guy that girls flock to. He couldn’t be interested in me, could he?
Requests: Clearly, I’m angling for a gay-for-you here, folks! It can be a double or single GFY, lots of sexual tension (please!), slow build romance, lots of heat. I would rather no BDSM but some light stuff wouldn’t bother me.
The photo is of a muscular guy in his early 20’s with smooth tan skin and dark brown hair that is combed back to spike up. He is standing behind a vacuum cleaner in a pair of blue boxer briefs with a grin on his face in what appears to be a bedroom and the picture seems to be candid.
This story was written as a part of the M/M Romance Group’s “Love’s Landscapes” event. Group members were asked to write a story prompt inspired by a photo of their choice. Authors of the group selected a photo, prompt that spoke to them, and wrote a short story.
This story may contain sexually explicit content and is intended for adult readers. It may contain content that is disagreeable or distressing to some readers. The M/M Romance Group strongly recommends that each reader review the General Information section before each story for story tags as well as for content warnings.
Purchase Link: http://www.mmromancegroup.com/awakenings-by-jayson-james/
Review: Solomon, Solo, has never really identified himself as being gay. He’s never had a boyfriend, or a girlfriend for that matter. He has dated girls, held hands, and even kissed one once. But more so to fit in with what his friends in school were doing. When he gets to college, he and his roommate instantly click and become best friends. Just normal guy stuff at the start. But then Solo finds himself noticing Ben more and more, little things, like the fact that Ben prefers being naked to clothed.
Ben is an exhibitionist of sorts. At least, where his roommate is concerned. I don’t think he intentionally tried to get a rise out of Solo. He’s just not ashamed of his body and enjoys the attention that people pay it. Over time, though something grows inside him. He finds himself attracted to Solo. Where the two have always been very flirtatious by nature, it’s never been a serious attraction or invitation to Solo to pursue. But late night mutual jack off sessions and some pretty sexy dreams are about to change all that.
I’m not entirely convinced that this is a GFY story. I think this is more of a story of two young men that identify as being attracted to each other, and that coupled with the strong bond of friendship, love and trust that they have for each other already just make that next step a no brainer.
Jayson James writing style is not for everyone. It’s very raw, realistic and young at heart. While there were a few things lacking here and there throughout the story, overall I loved the way these characters were portrayed. And for the reviewers complaining about the lack of sex, you do realize that James writes Gay YA, don’t you? Not every book in the genre has to be full of lust and passion. Sometimes young men are just getting their footing and wrapping their brain around their attraction to another guy.
Great job Jayson! Loved the story, loved the cover and I can’t wait to see more from these two young men.
Title: A Manx Tale (Liars and Lovers Book 3)
Author: Paul Alan Fahey
Genre: Historical Romance
Length: Novella (92 pages)
Publisher: JMS Books LLC (November 11th, 2013)
Heat Level: Moderate
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥3 Hearts
Blurb: Caroline and Cyril have recently wed and are honeymooning on the Isle of Man, a glorious spot in the middle of the Irish Sea marked by picturesque villages, rocky cliffs, and bracing winds. Caroline is immediately drawn to the island’s history of rampaging Vikings, tales of mermaids and legendary kings, and the friendly inhabitants with quaint superstitions and proverbs. In no time, she falls in love with her surroundings.
But unexplainable events unfold, convincing her sinister forces are at work. Part by accident and part by design, Edward and Leslie join the couple, and together they must identify a turned British agent, retrieve a top-secret document, and learn the true meaning of the phrase, “It all comes back to the camps.” Will logic and reason prevail, or will a bit of magic and island whimsy save the day?
Purchase Link: https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/378630
Review: this is one of those books that had me so confused I didn’t even begin to understand what it was talking about. Of course, it didn’t help that I had started reading the third book in the series, without reading books one and two first. Overall, it was a bit confusing. But it was worth it in the end. I found this story to be quite intriguing.
Caroline and Cyril are a great couple and when they meet Edward and Leslie, things start picking up big time. I found myself intrigued by how the story was written and how the characters present and hold strong no matter what. It is amazing what a bit of strength and some danger can do for a story.
Overall, this story is strong, powerful, and mesmerizing. I found myself wanting to read it again and again. I would highly recommend this to those that like to read historical fiction and the mystery that comes with it.
Series: Fighting Fire Book 3
Pulp friction 2014 #9
Author: Laura Harner
Length: Novella (64 pages)
Publisher: Hot Corner Press (May 13, 2014)
Heat Level: Moderate
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥♥ 5 Hearts
Blurb: **This book is part of the Pulp Friction 2014 Collection**
Scott refuses to accept his mistake dealt a final blow to his troubled relationship with Rob, so he’s working hard to finish the apartment he plans for them to share. With odd occurrences of vandalism, a poacher, and an increasingly active inner demon named PTSD, he has plenty to keep him busy while he waits for Robby to come around.
Rob is working a lot of overtime in order to qualify for a new position as a wildland firefighter—a minor detail he decides to withhold in light of Scott’s frequent nightmares. Of course, there are a couple of other details Scott has a right to know about—if only Robby hasn’t left things too late.
Just as one man discovers his truth—the other realizes everything he’s believed is a lie. One is certain they can work things out—the other knows why they can’t. Only one of them can be right. (
Review: This book is part of the Pulp Friction 2014 Collection (book 9) and also part of a series by Laura Harner. It is the 3rd book in the fighting fire book. You really do need to read all the books in the series in order, but don’t have to read all the collection stories to follow along, though it does help to get a better knowledge of the other characters mentioned.
Robbie is trying to deal with his secret. Since in a couple of weeks, he will be bringing it with him or going to where it’s at. That decision will also affect what job offer he takes. Scott is getting better physically but his nightmares are getting worse. He is still dealing with learning to run the campground and is trying to get it ready for actual visitors.
I really love this series. One of the things I like most is the complications of Scott and Robbie’s relationship. It is definitely not run of the mill. I also like the angst and the feelings they share. I can’t wait to see if they ever get on the same page. There were a few twists in this one that had me biting my nails and my jaw dropping.
If you like, series, interactive characters, hot firemen, a little mystery, a lot of suspense, jaw-dropping surprises, and some hot mansex this is definitely for you!
In case you need it here is the complete Fighting Fire Series order
Reading order for the Pulp Friction Collection
Title: Country Crush
Author: Shiloh Saddler
Length: Short (46 Pages)
Publisher: Secret Cravings Publishing (March 17, 2014)
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥4Hearts
Blurb: Country singer Will Conrad is afraid coming out will tank his career. Being a celebrity makes it difficult to pick up a man and keep things secret. A gay one night stand online dating site is his salvation. While he is performing in Las Vegas he agrees to meet the real cowboy with whom he has been corresponding.
A car accident left championship team roper Blake Bonner with a paralyzed leg and a wounded heart. Now fully recovered, he is ready for a relationship, but will his blind date want to be topped by a cripple and will he treat him like a whole man?
When Blake finds out his date is Will Conrad he can’t believe it. He’s been his country crush since he hit the country music scene. But when the paparazzi catch them together will their burgeoning relationship be able to brave the media storm?
Review: Blake is a sexy Rodeo Champion that is disabled. Will is a hot country singer. They meet via a dating site. Their romance starts out slow and sweet, but Once they meet, the passion is hot and explosive.
All is progressing nicely, until They find out that they’ve been caught by the paparazzi. There are a few tense moments before Will comes out and announces he’s gay and with Blake.
It’s a very touching story to see how they deal with the emotions of two different careers and Blake’s disability. I really enjoyed this story. I highly recommend this book to readers who love broken men, hot cowboys and a smexy HEA.
Title: Royal Line
Author: Sean Michael
Length: Novella (62 pages)
Publisher: Amber Allure, Amber Quill Press LLC (May 1st, 2014)
Heat Level: Moderate ~ Explicit
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥ 4 Hearts
Blurb: Tiger-shifter Grio has one job, locating dormant tiger-shifters and introducing them to the world of Saffron Tigers. When he finds Professor Phoenix Lamoure, he soon discovers that Headquarters got a couple of key points wrong–Phoenix isn’t actually a professor, but he is Saffron Tiger royalty, a member of the lost royal line.
Phoenix didn’t have things easy growing up. His mother spent most of her life in a mental institution, and he spent his formative years in foster care. When a stranger approaches and tries to unearth his family history, Phoenix becomes wary. And when the stranger actually kidnaps him, all bets are off!
Can Phoenix ever believe what Grio has to tell him? Or will he be forever convinced that he’s as crazy as his mother is?
Purchase Link: http://www.amberquill.com/store/p/1965-Royal-Line.aspx
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Review: I found this shifter book to be very hot. Hot enough to singe my fingertips. I loved how he wrote this book. Grio and Phoenix are amazing couple and know how to stick through things no matter what. Grio is rather stubborn but that is what makes him a good character. Both of them come across as surprisingly real for a short story. But Sean Michael shows off his strong suit when it comes to this shifter story.
The way it is written, the story comes across so amazing. So addicting to read. I simply loved it. Loved how it flowed, loved how hot the sex was and loved how no matter what there was heart to the story. And that is what does it for me. Some heart and a good strong storyline.
I would highly recommend this story for anyone that loves to read shifters and a hot couple.
Title: Seven Days
Series: Seven Days #1
Author: Andrew Grey
Narrator: Sean Crisden
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Length: 5 hours and 38 minutes
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press (11-17-2011)
Heat Level: Moderate
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥♥ 5 Hearts
Blurb: Can a person’s life change in just one day? How about seven? This is the story of seven pivotal days in Evan Donaldson’s life. Evan was a teenage street hustler when Father Valentin talked him into coming to Saint Bartholomew’s Academy. In that one day, Evan’s entire life changed. That’s the day he met his roommate, Clay Mueller, and the day Evan began to live. But Evan’s life would change again and again, from abuse to first love, to separation and heartbreak, and eventually to starting his own family. Through it all, whenever a door closed for Evan, a window opened, and the window was Clay. From the first day of finding faith and connecting with Clay through their relationship’s twists and turns, this is a glimpse into seven decisive days and the critical, amazing way a single moment can change destiny.
Review: Evan Donaldson is a teenage, homeless boy who lost both his parents in a car accident and then ran away from the foster parents he was placed with. He learned how hard life could be that very first night on the street, and now he does whatever he has to do to survive. When he first meets Father Valentin on the street, he assumes the priest wants to be his next customer. But Father Valentin wants so much more for Even. The chance to give the young man the life he deserves. Evan is wary at first, but he puts his faith in the older, gentle man and it changes his life irrevocably.
For a teenage boy who has lost everything including his hope and dignity, Father Val, the school and the friends he meets that very first day turn his life around. Especially Clay Mueller. Evan is smitten with Clay from the start, but he never acts on it. Not only has Father Val explained the rules of the school, but also Evan is certain that Clay is straight, and doesn’t want to lose his best friend. Years later, the night before they graduate, Evan learns that Clay shares his attraction. But then after graduation the two drift apart, going to separate colleges and leading different lives. But Clay remains the one constant in Evan’s life. Through school, growing up, boyfriends, girlfriends and eventually adopting a little boy who is not much different from Evan all those years ago. Time and distance cannot escape destiny.
This is by far one of my favorite books in the genre. It is also my favorite book by Andrew Grey. I read the print copy several years ago and the story of Evan, Clay and Father Val has always resonated with me. It’s deep and powerful and shows that with determination, anyone can do anything. And that when you love unconditionally and give as much as you can to someone, expecting nothing in return as Father Val did with Evan and all the young men at the school, it can stay with them throughout their lives. Shaping them into decent and loyal human beings with a scale for love that has no limit.
Narrated by Sean Crisden, one of the best storytellers that we have today. I imagine those old radio shows from back in the day and the voice coming through the speaker transporting you into the world he was reading about. That is what Crisden does with this story. I have both read and listened to this book, and neither variance was disappointing. This is a must read if you like coming of age, finding who you are, beating the odds and that sometimes elusive HEA ending. And, who doesn’t love Andrew Grey?!
Author: G.A. Hauser
Length: Novel (202 Pages)
Publisher: The GA Hauser Collection LLC (May 02, 2014)
Heat Level: Explicit
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥♥ 5 Hearts
Blurb: Working undercover was not one of Dee William’s favorite assignments, but when things in his life got too complicated, he decided to accept the offer. Dee was to infiltrate one of LA’s most violent street gangs, and help the authorities build a RICO case against the gang leader. What Dee finds is that the gang is not the real target of the Bureau. They are out to net bigger fish, leaving Dee to broker drug deals worth millions of dollars and placing his life on the line.
Karl Mullens was trapped. His sister, who had died of an overdose, had left him to pick up the debt, and that meant Karl was forced to join a gang he despised, to repay it. With the lives of his family in the balance, Karl endures the violence and pressure from the gang, until a new member joins them, goes through the brutal hazing and begins to show the top dog just how much of an asset he is by bringing big hauls of cash and heroin into their pockets.
What neither Karl nor Dee expected was the risky attraction that formed between them, and soon, both men learn each other secrets and sexual desires. Desires that place them in greater danger.
The only thing left for each man is the hope of getting out alive. But now Dee and Karl know they have an ally in this gang of murderers and thieves. Each other. And there is no doubt the bond they have created together gives them one choice… to kill to protect one other.
And on the mean streets of the worst areas of LA, death means nothing…
But Dee finds, love means…everything.
Review: This was a fantastic book to read.
Dee Williams is undercover in a very violent street gang. There he meets Karl Mullens, a reluctant member of the gang who was coerced into joining to pay off his sister’s debt to them. Both men are attracted to each other but have to be extremely careful not to let it show to any of the gang members or it could mean their deaths. Slowly things start to unravel around them, as things get more and more dangerous with the unstable gang leader, L-Man and the man he works for W-T. There are accusations made against Dee and Karl by L-Man and W-T for a drive by shooting and Dee being a cop. After being kidnapped by W-T and three of his men, Dee is beaten up badly. Eventually, he gets himself free and gets control of the other 4 men. He calls the feds to pick them up.
There was nonstop action, danger, and mystery throughout this wonderfully written book. Some scenes had me holding my breath wondering what was going to happen next. So much happened throughout this story that made it an excellent read when combined all together. I would recommend this book to anyone who likes fast-paced nonstop action.
Series: Endangered Fae 02
Author: Angel Martinez
Genre: Fantasy, Contemporary, Paranormal
Length: Novel (295pgs)
Publisher: MLR Press (6th June 2014)
Heat Level: Moderate
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥♥4 ½ Hearts
Blurb: Diego and Finn’s peaceful life in Montana shatters when Diego unwittingly rips a hole in the Veil to the Otherworld—mysterious prophecies, dying fae, hostile government agents, and there’s so much more that could still go wrong.
After defeating an evil wendigo, a man and his pooka lover deserve a little quiet. Unfortunately, Diego and Finn’s hard-won peace is disturbed when Diego, in a jealous rage, unwittingly rips a hole in the impenetrable Veil to the Otherworld.
Separated, stuck on the other side of the Veil where Finn has to face old conflicts and Diego is the only human in a land of fae, the two of them navigate rocky waters between huge egos and ancient feuds. Worse still, some of the fae are dying of a mysterious illness and everyone believes Diego is the key to a cure. Things can’t possibly get any worse, can they? Oh, yes—they can when the US government gets involved.
Purchase Link: http://www.mlrbooks.com/ShowBook.php?book=AM_DIEGO
Review: This story is part of a series and must be read in order. This is the 3rd edition of Diego and I really couldn’t see any changes from the 2nd edition so it isn’t necessary to purchase the newest edition if you have the earlier one.
Diego and Finn have settled into life in Montana after defeating the wendigo in Canada, but their peace is shattered when, after returning from a short trip, Diego flies into a jealous rage and rips a tear in the veil to the Otherworld. Diego and Finn are now in the land of the fae on two separate sides of an old feud, they have to breach the gap between the two sides to reunite and help to discover what illness has befallen the warriors. As they help the fae the worst is still to come when the US government get involved and the fae must work together to rescue their own.
This is a brilliant addition to the Endangered Fae series and I was very impressed with the brilliance of the twisting storyline. Diego loses control while fighting his jealousy and anger when he catches Finn in a compromising position, now he finds himself alone in a strange land with strange fae, and his only wish is that Finn was with him. A good deed backfires on Finn and now he finds himself back in the land of the fae with no clue of what happened to Diego, stuck with the Fomorian Finn will do anything trying to get back to Diego’s side. There is much more that happens with the fae being forced to join up and put the past behind them, they also discover the depraved depths the humans will go to in the name of National security.
I really loved this story because it has such a different storyline to anything I have read before, at first I thought it would just be the normal fantasy story where one human discovers all the fae’s secrets but it expands bringing in more people until the shocking reveal. Finn and Diego really get dragged through it this time and if you thought that the fight with the wendigo (from the first book Finn) was tough on them then I have to tell you the trials they go through in this one makes it look like a walk in the park. Finn is his usual incredible self but he has grave doubts about his being the right person for Diego, it hits his confidence when other fae tell him he isn’t good enough. Diego is the same caring person that we love and know, but he does annoy when he ignores Finn in favor of the other fae at times, yes some of them are ill but seriously you don’t ignore the one you love when they need reassurance.
There is so much that happens that I really don’t want to ruin the story for others, but Finn and Diego’s relationship proves to be stronger than anything that was thrown at it. Jealousy rears its head several times, we meet several new wonderful fae, there’s conflict and danger, there’s horrendous torture, there’s incredible love and endless hope, there’s a daring rescue and a race that stands up for itself against the odds. This story was just incredible; it expands to encompass more people so it widens the range of where the story can go, it’s beautifully written and all the characters are fantastic, Finn and Diego’s relationship is tested and only gets stronger, it is a true privilege to read.
I recommend this to those who love fantasy and contemporary merging, who love problems being fixed and solutions found, who love drama and angst, daring rescues and confronting the world with the truth.
Title: Spot the Difference
Author: Sean Michael
Genre: Contemporary/ BDSM
Length: Novella (57 Pages)
Publisher: Amber Allure, Amber Quill Press (April 20th, 2014)
Heat Level: Explicit
Heart Rating: ♥♥♥♥4Hearts
Blurb: Having both recently left Doms who just weren’t right for them, twins Christopher and Robin get together at a coffee house to commiserate. They can’t help but wish out loud for the men they’re looking for. These ideal men are as different as the twins are alike, though, and they lament ever finding two Doms to fit the bill.
When barista Core asks Robin to go to dinner with him after hearing his wish list, Christopher can’t help but be jealous of his twin. That soon changes, however, when Darren approaches his table with a few wishes of his own.
Can Christopher and Robin really both find exactly what they’re looking for on the same night? Or is it too big a coincidence to be real?
Review: This title is part of the Vive La Difference AmberPax Collection. It is not available in paperback.
This story is really cute. I absolutely loved Robin and Christopher. They are gorgeous and surprisingly twins. There are so many things about them that are identical but what they want in their Doms. When one goes through something it would seem that the other goes through the same thing or close. It had been a while since they had seen each other, so they were overjoyed when they got together at the coffee shop.
Christopher and Robin were down in the dumps. The Doms that they had been with were not right for them and they just needed to talk about it together. Christopher was a pushy little bottom who needed strict discipline and a firm hand. He responds really well to punishment and praise. Robin is a sassy pain who needs daily beatings and hourly play times. He loves spankings and is a size queen.
They just never expected anyone to ever want them and figured that to could be down together. What they had not expected was to be over heard. Core owns the coffee shop where Robin and Christopher are having the best conversation. Or so Core thinks, he has wanted the cute man for a long time so when he over hears him. Well, time to hook up. He is going to get Robin.
Now Christopher is feeling lower than ever now that his brother is off and playing. That is till a sexy man just comes up to him and lets him know that he not only heard but he was going to be Christopher’s boy. Darren could not believe that this sexy little man wanted the same thing he wanted. Things are going to heat up.
I have not really been into the hard-core BDSM scene, but Sean always knows how to write the stories that I can fall in love with. Although I would love to read more about these four. Or at least see what their futures like but I love these stories he gives. It has sexy men, twins, spankings, discipline, and sassy subs. I cannot wait to read another book by Sean.
Hey guys we have Cardeno C. visiting us with the incredible All of Me, I got to do a live interview with C.C. which was loads of fun and I finally got to read and review this wonderful story. Now you lucky minions will have a chance to win your very own copy and all you have to do is leave a comment 🙂 and remember to click that Rafflecopter link for a chance to win the entire Daily Dose collection! ❤ ~Pixie~
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Life comes with a bit of hurt, but luckily for these men, it also comes with the right amount of comfort to mend their breaks, both of the body and the heart. From facing deranged exes to economic trials, the men in these tales have faced trial by fire–or in some cases water–for the right to love and live. Step into their shoes as they rebuild their family after a gutting betrayal or traverse the stars with an unexpected partner. The Mended Daily Dose package delivers stories about all kinds of second chances built on love.
Felicitas Ivey Zahra Owens Emily Moreton Cardeno C. S.A. Garcia Elizabeth Noble M. Lee Ellis Carrington Kim Fielding Ari McKay E.T. Malinowski Bru Baker K.C. Wells Gwynn Marssen Lee Comyn Ashavan Doyon Eli Easton Charley Descoteaux Therese Woodson MA Ford Kenzie Cade Coral Moore L.D. Blakeley Chloe Stowe Ronnie Matthews Jayden Brooks Diane Lennox C. Callenreese Mars Novak Emma Wilson
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Cross & Crown
(A Sidewinder Story 02)
When Nick O’Flaherty arrives at the scene of a double homicide to find he has a witness to the crime, he thinks it’s his lucky day. But when he realizes his witness is suffering from amnesia and can’t even remember his own name, Nick wishes he’d gone with his gut and put in for vacation time.
Then Nick’s boyfriend and former Recon teammate, Kelly Abbott, joins him in Boston, and Nick finds his hands a little too full as the case and his personal life collide. The witness he’s dubbed “JD” is being tailed by Julian Cross, a retired CIA hitman. To complicate matters further, JD forms an attachment to Nick that Nick struggles not to respond to as they search for the key to JD’s identity.
Trying to determine whether JD is friend or foe as they investigate the crime puts them on the trail of a much older mystery. When multiple attempts are made on their lives, Nick is forced to turn to old enemies and new allies to solve a centuries-old crime before he and Kelly get added to the history books.
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Finding Release (Audio)
Finding Release (Wild R Farm 1) is now available in audio!
Coleman Wilder is a half-breed werewolf. Some days the tension between his human side and his werewolf instincts threaten to tear him apart. But the challenge of running a horse farm as a gay man in a conservative Tennessee town keeps him focused until he meets horse shifter, Jonah Marks.
Jonah’s family insists that shifting is sinful, but Jonah longs to let his stallion run free. Desperate to escape his family’s judgment, he asks Cole, his secret crush, for a job. Cole turns him down, scared his desire for Jonah will make him lose control. When Jonah’s brother threatens his life, Cole struggles to save him and give them both a second chance at the life they’ve always wanted.